Maybe..who knows...

I don't know, I don't know...that's all we, humans, can say about it when it comes to hard stuff.

It seems confusing, and there's no sign of relief. Pain appears to be eternal, many times.

And the same image is held strongly in our minds, showing no intention of leaving our pure souls in peace, in that peace we think we'll never arrive, beacause our heart beats too fast by now...

and it makes me sick, to go over and over again through such the same loops..over and over...until memories of what we amass so strong seem to loose weight. Suddenly, chains in which we've been locked up start to cede.

Who knows what's the cure for such a disease. Who could tell if that rain could ease off.

Suffer is not a priority in our wish list, but we know, hell we know each time wind blows, we know where through, it carries a cold load of things we don't want there. Please my heart, please it my god. I just want to understand, if it's me being so blind I can't get the real meaning out of it, or if life it's carrying me where she wants, where she wants.

It was so nice to feel I could just die, holding you in my arms, feeling your sweet lips, I thought we could just be togheter, forever. Your love and mine, held in a row...I thought that could just be, I felt so lucky to have you.

I must say I could never remember of you hurting me, that would be hipocritical, that would be just unfair, insensitive bullshit. But you know that wouldn't come out of me mouth. You know what it's been between us. May be it's only an unfulfilled desire, or a series of them, when we didn't coincide, but I really felt I had you there by my side when I needed to hear you, to hear from you. When I needed to see you, and, no matter how stupid it can seem, just to know you where standing there, right next to me. And I was there for you, when you need it. You know it, I couldn't hide for a time how much I needed you.

I don't know if to say love would just be right, could fit my feelings for you, I don't know if I loved you entirely, but I'm sure we had a great chance to start to know each other better. I'm not withdrawing myself from what I told you I felt for you before, and, in fact, I still feel. Call it love, call it feeling a hundred percent alive with you by my side, call it whatever you want. But knowing what it's like, what it feels like, it's all I need to know at least once upon a time you felt for me. We where so good toghether, no matter when, no matter what we where doing, I just felt good with you. Then I realized I needed you, really. I don't want to cheat on me, nor remembering me about it, but I could say I still need you, and you don't know how much I miss you.

I didn't expect things coming up this way, may be I just couldn't understand you, couldn't see, may be it was me being blind...but I believe in what I feel but...I'm afraid,

maybe tomorrow I'll have to say good bye, and be prepared to forget what it meant to me...forever...

With a twist in my throat, a sea in my eyes, and a memory of you in my mind, I'm on this struggle, trying to forget I onced loved you.